Doctor: Check!

November 11, 2012

Imagine making a call at 1:13 a.m. and getting a real person on the other end at a hospital who can answer your questions and get you going in the right direction. Imagine no more because it exists at The James. A nurse who knows cancer answered the phone and was so easy to talk to and listened. We will get the ball rolling Monday with information from the doctors and the tests done and will get me scheduled as soon as possible — possibly Tuesday afternoon. They don’t waste time and I like that.

Taking a deep breath and thanking God for caring people who have my best interests at heart.

I was doing my little happy dance after I got off the phone. This doctor was named as one of the best in America. What more could a girl ask for? 

Doesn’t mean I’m not scared but robot is still on the table which means less down time and that means one happy girl. 

The tears right now from my dry eyes are not ones of horror or sadness — they are of happiness and joy because having skilled doctors and nurses at a hospital that specializes in cancer is a great place to start. Their numbers are incredible and for me — worth the drive because there are so many more birthday to celebrate and spaghetti suppers to attend. 

Tonight we went to my mom’s church for a spaghetti dinner. Sitting there laughing with Rob and our son Jason and my mom and my brother and sister-in-law was awesome. As we walked out I started to cry thinking could this be my last spaghetti supper in November? Could it be the last time I see my brother make a spaghetti sandwich? Could it be the last time I see my sister-in-law laugh so hard over butter melting on contact with a plate? I shook my head and quietly wiped my tears. There is no reason to think that way. This is the most common cancer in American women — more common than breast cancer! It is not nearly as deadly and most of the time if caught early is solved with surgery and perhaps some radiation. I can do this. I can and will do this.

Seeing the look in my husband’s eyes when I came to help him this afternoon “play radio” was a gift too because I don’t remember the last time he looked at me that way. He is simply amazing. He keeps holding my hand and reminding me that he is there for me. Its hard though to let my guard too far down — I don’t want our son to know how scared I am, yet I want to be real. Skinny line to walk let me tell ya.

Okay so its 1:30 a.m. and I’m still working on some work projects as I need to “play radio” again tomorrow. After all, my husband is always ready, willing and able to help me. If working late tonight means I can do him a favor — I’m more than happy to be up all night if need be. Then again — I have insomnia that even sleeping pills doesn’t seem to help.

Until later.


2 Responses to “Doctor: Check!”

  1. Julie Rose Says:

    So glad to hear that you have the the James on your side!

  2. Rob Says:

    Honey, I was truly amazed on how you helped out with the radio event that we organized. It was so amazing listening to you telling the people on the other end about your home town and why it is special to you. I know you were surprised by how many people have ties to Sugarcreek, Ohio.

    We will get through this dear. I am always here to help with your various projects and commitments, and this will be no different. We will do this together, just like we always do for the Fab 50’s car show in June or the Ohio Swiss Festival that always falls near our wedding anniversary.

    Just take it one day at a time, and keep your chin up. I know you tend to worry at times, but we need to be optimistic about this. If you need any help with that, just ask me, your favorite “morning person” to give you a hand.

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