Out of my mind

June 18, 2014

To say I’m scared is probably an understatement.

Two weeks ago I completed my first Relay for Life Event and by 8 a.m. was feeling pretty drained – physically as well as emotionally. I went home and slept the day away. I got up in the late afternoon and could barely walk. I was stiff and sore and just didn’t feel well. I got a shower and went to work. My husband and son came to go to Millers Dutch Kitchen for our normal Saturday night feast. We went but I could barely eat. The pain in my lower right side was becoming almost unbearable. I took some pain killers and started to sweat and then shiver. I went home home early and straight to bed. It was all the strength I had to get up and go to work the next morning. I had two other places to be – a birthday party and a graduation party. I went to neither as I was convinced it was the flu or appendicitis. I finished up all my duties to make sure I didn’t burden anyone and went home. I asked my husband to take me to the ER.

First of all, me asking for such a thing is a weird request. We went and the doctor, albeit very nice, told me he thought it was a pulled muscle and gave me meds for my nausea as when I’m in pain I’m nauseous. I went home, ate because of the meds and went to bed. The next morning it was worse. I went to my family doctor who scratched her head as well. She ran some tests and gave me meds and sent me for ultrasounds. The ultrasounds couldn’t be done for, in one case a week and the second one would be 10 days until I could be fit in. I got the prescriptions filled and hoped it would get better. It didn’t. The pain increased. There were lots of ideas as to what was wrong but nothing to fix it.

Last Wednesday night I couldn’t take the pain any more as lifting my leg to get into the car as the driver was off the charts as it jarred my lower right side. At first I think the ER thought I was one of those looking for pain pills junkies. However, the doctor listened and ordered a CT scan despite the ultrasounds being clear. They did some blood work and got an IV going with anti nausea and heavy duty pain killers. When Morphine only takes the edge off the pain you are in — it could be a sign.

Alas CT scan was performed and we heard lots of hoopla and consults. There is a mass about the size of a large orange on my lower right side in front of my appendix. They don’t believe it is attached to anything. At first they speculated it was a hematoma. However, that is no longer the logic. I visited a local surgeon the following day after being released with pain killers and lots of antibiotics. The surgeon told me I should go see my doctors in Columbus.

I was at The James yesterday. Dr. Silani really is incredible. She gave me a short list of options that it could be — including a recurrence of cancer. She gave me a plan. She gave me a little hope.

Now I wait for OSU Wexner to call to tell me when to be there for a biopsy. Three business days after the biopsy we will know what we are dealing with and will react accordingly. If not cancer, it could be an infection. If not either of those it could be scar tissue from my original surgery.

Until then I plan to keep life as normal as possible. Working today, then appts for Jason and errands and then home to relax and put my feet up.

I’ll post more when I know more.




4 Responses to “Out of my mind”

  1. Bev, I am so sorry that you are in such pain and under so much stress trying to get things back to normal. Will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. Susan miller Says:

    Sorry to hear this Bev, praying for healing, and for Gods very best in your life!

  3. Oh, Bev, what an awful experience! I’ll be thinking of and praying for you. Hang in there.

  4. Karen Baker Says:

    So sorry to hear of your health issues. Please know that the Dundee United Methodist Church prayed for you and your family today. The waiting for results of tests is hard, sometimes harder than the diagnosis. Please keep us posted.
    Love and prayers,
    Aunt Karen and Uncle Stan

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